Sunday, August 31, 2008
101st post! lol.
just came back from rvco!
quite zai haha their hard work wasn't for nothing!
dont mind the little screw ups :D
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finally can sleep peacefully today night.. x.x
i just realised i have only 4 days free minus all the events and stuff for school -.-
need to chiong oral defense, cde term paper, chem revision, physics revision and maths revision. =.=
today's also the end of the seventh month o.O
on my way home i tried to see if anything's around through my camera phone..but nothing. luckily. XD
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i am not alone,
yet i am.
all this melancholy pent up,
as i stand alone in the crowd,
together, yet so far apart,
talking,
yet not speaking from the heart.
wearing this mask,
isolating myself.
trying not to,
but oh well,
i feel so helpless,
and hate myself for that.
why can't i take the initiative,
but can only wait for others to take the lead.
to take everything away.
to ignore my existence.
With nothing to consider,
they forget my name.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Another term comes to an end.
Looming ahead is the final test.
In a blink of an eye, 3/4 of a year has already passed.
first week of term 4 is so fun i could cry.
8-10 common test for chinese paper 2.
after school got oral defense for lunwen. -.-
need to hand in term paper for cde..
not to mention studying for the final exams.
=/
teacher's day performance was not bad.
but i was playing blackjack at the back lol.
7 blackjacks and 1 double-As! xD
after that i went to watch WALL-E with alison!
it was soooooo cute and nice!
even though there was minimal dialogue, the future of the Earth can be depicted very clearly.. technology and stuff.
not to mention the cute scenes between wall-e and eve! xD
one of the better animated movies this year!
sigh september holidays should be renamed september "stay home and study" week. =.=
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The sands of time may flow,
the river of memories too,
but my secret love will still be here,
waiting for you.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Stress Overwhelm!
Physics test pushed forward to tmr..informed of this change less than 24 hours before the actual thing.
Physics Olympiad (i don't know what compelled me to go for this anyway.. -.-)
tmr after school x.x
Chemistry Test on Thursday.
RAWR! me want shleep.
and some unseen force is preventing me from preparing properly apparently..
lost my calculator and ALL my notes. WTHHHHH
vball is the new in thing for proedians. now we are all hooked onto vball!
everyday during recess play lol.
i realised that while i can do normal work, i cant seem to do tests.
27 days left to doomsday.
Are You Ready to embrace the all-engulfing chaos?
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Forsaken sleep for the BSP talk ytd T-T
didn't listen, didn't plan to listen.
was doing physics / chem at the back lol.
apparently its supposed to be quite an interesting talk..but i am just apathetic.
the tea break wasn't that bad though. the food was quite okay! haha
then after that i decided to be funny and take out my psp to play..i play for 5mins tio caught by teacher ==
not any teacher..the HOD for chinese in JC side. win.
kept asking "give chance la give chance la"
then he "no chance."
but he did say "ezlink card or psp."
anyone in their right mind would say "ezlink" laa xD
lucky i asked liu qian for help.
didn't say it directly, but just "老师，他是谁？他没收了我的ezlink!"
then she give me the "orhor ur in trouble" look and then tell me go apologize.
afterwards she helped me ask it back!
so i did a deep bow to him and expressed profuse apologies. hahah
damn heng! x.x
afterwards weisheng/me/zongxian/josh/ervin/wenhao/yiran/yijiao/patricia/shuyun went to lunch..or at least walked there together. lol
they decided against coro and then went to island creamery. lol. so we were left at golden rooster.
-.-
went to bugis afterwards and stoned at kinokuniya x.x
OHMYGOD ALL THE JAPANESE MAGAZINES! I WANT I WANT I WANT! and all those cool lelouch of the rebellion fanbooks x.x couldn't find macross frontier's one tho =/
i wan to buy la no money! got arashi / kat-tun/ NEWS and all the rock bands stuff like nightmare and orange range and LM.C!!!!
so i just ended up practicing my katagana by reading all those book names lol.
i realised i forgot the way to ECO office.
so i called zhikai for directions..apparently i went the direct opposite way. LOL
and i realised the briefing for earth hour starts at 3. not 4. LOL.
so i just sat in and listened to what appears to be the ending part of ryal's speech. and then talked around with everyone..apparently a j1 senior from hcjc was in this thing too and she's from band o.O
she was like "why dont want join jc band??"
and before leaving ryal say "so..dunkit! at chingay! u want to join?"
so i just smiled and gave him a thumbs up. haha
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1 month left to eoys. 1 february long in fact.
and it's raining like torrentially everyday.-.-
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A tear of heaven,
or just precipitation?
Friday, August 22, 2008
End of Sabbaticals.
I am surprised some sec 1s actually remember my name..quite touched..since i really haven't done much (in fact i said some mean stuff) and i was just laming around with them.
:)
we chipped in and bought ferrero rocher (however u spell it) for the 2 lab assistants and ms boey cos they helped us a lot!
Another round of thanks to all of you!
Ms Boey told us that the chem part ( our part) of the science eureka was rated one of the most memorable amongst all the courses! :D
I found out that most sec 1s were actually quite okay too!
Tmr we all have that BSP talk from 8.30 to 12.30...what a pain.
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This Persona of Mine,
never did exist.
I try to tear off this joker mask,
to show what i truly am.
Yet no matter how i pull,
no matter how i struggle,
no matter how i try,
this mask won't come off.
maybe, just maybe,
i have acted so much,
that it has become second nature.
What happened to that self i drowned in lies?
What happened to that old self in memories?
Who am i?
Me?
Or this Persona i see in the mirror?
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Sabbatical Week. An escape from the tediousness of school.
For the past 4 days we've been teaching sec 1s from all 4 consortiums, and we confirmed that in every consortium, there will be the slightly rebellious, the enthusiastic, and the outright retards. Of course, no naming here.
What a pain. x.x
But i quite enjoyed the teaching :D fun experiments such as making slime or playing the detective game with them. haha!
Oh well, back to school.
Physics / Chemistry Double Science Combo Test coming right up.
Same Day too.
-.-
Went to The Cathay to watch movie with cindy ytd..
Wanted to watch space chimps, but apparently havent started showing, so we decided on Journey to the Centre of the Earth. Non 3D. hahaha
Not bad plot, and the budget shouldnt be that high too, considering there's only 3 main cast we see throughout the show. But hey, that guy's from the Mummy! ( i confused the movies and thought i entered the wrong cinema x.x)
Anyway, due to a unexpected windfall from cindy, she decided to treat me for both the tickets and the popcorns! ( i wanted to pay..but the guy said he had no change for 50dollars.. lol )
THANKS MUCH! haha
Went to AMK hub today with lytien and warren to find teacher's day presents...and found none. No Teacher's Day Card in the Whole Mall. wow. lots of explicit stuff like "hot girl/hot guy" and "Welcome to the Stud Club" though. LOL
wanted to watch movie ... then found out the Mummy shows at 7.20pm. it was like 5 hours away so we gave up and we all went home. hahha
GG. 31 days left to EOYs. that translate into roughly 744 hours. 1 month. 4 Subjects. 1 Final Outcome. It's make or break.
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Lunacy,
This must be.
Under the shine of the sun,
under the glow of the moon,
panic stalks me.
everywhere.
i worry.
i frown.
yet i put on
a mask of deception.
a mask that hides all that
and show someone i never really was.
i was never that happy,
i was never carefree,
i was always trapped in that cage of despair.
no one realised,
nor i expect anyone to,
yet their words hurt.
when they do not understand you,
yet pretend they do.
I am trapped in this cage.
This sphere of darkness.
This Lunacy.
Monday, August 18, 2008
IT MIGHT NOT MEAN MUCH TO MANY PEOPLE..(SOME MIGHT EVEN WHINE ABT THIS KIND OF RESULTS) BUT I AM HAPPY TO SAY I HAVE IMPROVED. :)
2.66~2.77!
1 point down, 1 more to go!
First day of sabbaticals!
Quite fun teaching the sec ones laa..just that they are abit uncooperative sometimes..but that's just a select few.
I am so happy that Ortus sec 1s are so good! haha even though i am from ProEd!
Hopefully the rest of the sec 1s are as cooperative!
Woke up at 4+ am and chionged to coronation plaza to supposedly buy stuff from the ntuc...to get a notice of "9am come back!"
Everyone forgot abt the fact that none of us had bought materials.. -.-
in the end we went to the petrol kiosk to buy our drinks..and carrying all those drinks we went to 7-11. the shopkeeper asked "wa why nvr buy from us?" and daoyi blatantly replied "Cos your side more expensive." resulting in the shopkeeper saying "den go there buy! don't come here!"
-.-
FUNNIEST THING IS: the lab assistant had already bought everything for us in the end T-T
We had wasted our sleeptime SOBS
Auntie dao me again at bus stop -.- she never even noticed me o.o
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I expected it.
All the great wondrous happenings
All the nice friends,
All the happiness that we shared,
all the times where we laughed and joked.
All the times we went out and had fun,
I believed it to be true.
Now as times changed,
we now walk our different paths,
our different lives,
our different ways.
we no longer keep in contact,
all those conversations and phone calls,
as you leave and distant yourself.
I expected it,
yet i denied it.
It was just a dream.
A dream never to be realised.
A dream destined to be devoured
By the harshness and sorrow
of the
Reality.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Staying home on sunday sucks.
Need to rush a whole bunch of crap that i had procrastinated..
STOP THIS FOOLISH ACT OF SHORT TERM RELIEF.
i shall procrastinate no more!
今日事，今日毕！
shall start eoys revision now..while also revising for the test next wk.
anyone catching the SG vs CN match(or should i say CN vs CN) for table tennis finals?
7.30! xD
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What is it like to be
In an asylum?
It would be pandemonium
madness abound
No one to listen to
No one to talk to
blank everywhere.
No one to care for
Nor will you be cared for.
You will be alone
in that white blank void
deprived, devoid of.
everything.
in that asylum
that is my world.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
SINGNET SUCKS PERIOD.
been spending the past 3 HOURS TRYING TO GET THE DAMN INTERNET WORKING.
whenever it rains, "intermittent disconnections" happen.
when i call them they tell me to reboot my modem. AND IT DISCONNECTS AGAIN.
Singnet sucks.
wasted my precious time trying to fix crap that shouldn't have happened.\
RAWR.
Friday, August 15, 2008
STRAWBERRY PANIC!! haha!
ADDICTED TO STRAWBERRY FLAVORED STUFF OUT OF A SUDDEN!
XD
was helping my mum buy stuff downstairs when i suddenly felt an urge for strawberry flavored stuff hahaha
nicenicenicenice!! XD
<3
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Just took my maths make-up test..hopefully can get a1.. i need 91/100 for this test to get overall A2. -.-
got A2 for the third time in a row this year for ihc..and i actually studied for like 1 hour for this! not FAIR! hope she gives the bonus 1 mark heh, provided my assignment got a1 x.x
sabbatical week next week. YAY! 1 WHOLE WEEK TO MUG FOR CHEM AND PHYSICS TEST! o.O
less than 1000 hours to End Of Years. woohoo.
AND EVERYONE'S CRAZY OVER OLYMPICS!
filza claims my previous emo post was a nice poem.. didn't even thought of it as a poem. lol.
finally the progreen club's doing something.. A POSTER COMPETITION! COME AND JOIN AND GET UP TO 10 ACE IF YOURS GET SELECTED AND SENT TO THE NEA POSTER COMPETITION! XD
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i have gone lunatic.
crazy you might say.
but i am still sane.
not impervious to my surroundings.
Your beautiful, mesmerizing eyes,
no longer look at me.
Your full red lips,
no longer talk to me.
I feel my existence fade and wane,
as you turn your back.
Another waves at you.
you smile, not looking back.
and i could only see and stare.
as melancholy overwhelms me.
But is this all just my lunacy?
Or is there more to it?
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
ASEAN Summit ended! xD
It's easy to realise how hard it is to come to a total consensus on issues, since some countries might feel it is against their national interests, or just trying to be uncooperative. (hint hint phillipines)
Basically we didn't discuss much, and most of the stuff we discussed (i just realised) is really restricted to that same few topics. Guess we can't be smarter than those real diplomats huh.
rawr its like 8-5.30..and i am experiencing a brain drain and a lack of motivation for maths test tmr =O
i shall do well. or i am screwed upside down. SO I WILL DO WELL AHAHAHA
time to mug maths now..will post more about asean summit and some pics tmr :)
Sunday, August 10, 2008
I
hate being a bystander.
The times when you can only watch.
And not do anything.
As everything gets pulled away,
everything gets devoured,
everything you hold dear gets stolen right in front of you.Yet
i am powerless
in the face of adversity.
in the face of ordeals.
i cannot do anything.
i cannot change anything.
i can only go with the flow.
i can only be a bystander.
dunk it'08! fun xD
walked around promoting anti-litter!
while it's not exactly sure how much impact we actually made, we at least had fun! :D
my group (D15) was dao..
"eh walk faster okay!"
*nods* *continues strolling*
-.-
can't say i was a good eym. but heck. haha
on the other hand, baifeng's group seem to be more active, asking to take pictures with me and baifeng haha
had lots of fun with everyone there.. mostly the nanyang / hci / rv people. since the other 2 groups had their own cliques i presume @_@
peixian/madel/tongjing/yingling/jasmine/yinkuan/xinyu/minying/yingci/natalie/zongxian/dahwei/shawn/baifeng and of course our dear ot zhikai. xD
of course there were the exco members! huanjun/lijun/jack and the others whose names i forgotten cos my memories has failed me sorry!
it was memorable! xD
AND WE ARE GONNA HAVE A BSP FACILS CELEBRATION FOR THE SEPTEMBER BIRTHDAY BOYS AND GIRLS! XD
pics courtesy of photography from dahwei and baifeng using my camera and myself
me and baifeng sharing ice kachang o.o i drank the remainder -.-
my group! D15! xD
D15 in front of esplanade cos we couldn't go up to the roof -.-
in front of supreme court
a pic with man in green shirt!
cute little boy playing soccer with paper ball for one of our tasks!
in front of victoria hall!
picture with long haired girls in sunglasses!
in front of singapore flyer! (kind of far off tho xD)
pics with this kind couple who also offered to give us bottles of water cos their bags were too heavy LOL
NY+HCI+RV EYMS! xD 
ny+hci eyms! xD yijiao and zongxian looks like they are holding hands LOL
after event supper..basically crapping session in macs..
i saw jeremy there o.O haha saw him when we were near the esplanade but he was rushing to find a nice spot for pictures so i missed him..
then we went to macs saw him again! hahah
the world is so small!
xD
probably would take part in zhikai's dunk it @ chingay next year lol and also ndp!
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No Love - Simple Plan
Staring out into the world across the street
You hate the way your life turned out to be
He's pulling up in the driveway and you don't make a sound
Cause you always learn to hold the things you want to say
Your always going to be afraid
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Broken down like a mirror smashed to peices
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile
If these walls could talk they would have so much to say
Cause everytime you fight the scars are gonna heal but there never gonna go away
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh no So what will you do?
Your falling, your screaming
Your stuck in the same old nightmare
He's lying, your crying
There's nothing left to salvage
Kick the door cause this is over
Get me out of here
(Kick the door)
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Tell me what will you do?
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here.
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. How fitting.
My existence is mediocre.
But i can only try to expand it. even if it's futile.
i want to believe.
yet no one gives a damn about me.
in this world,
can i make a stand?
even when i try to be happy,
this sense of sadness overwhelms me.
why?
Friday, August 8, 2008
randomly at school doing random quizzes..
You Are Extremely Sexually Powerful
Your sexual power is obvious - you don't do anything to hide your sexuality.
In fact, if there's such a thing as a person with too much sexual power, it's you.
Your life and thoughts are dominated by sex. And while it's good to be sexually liberated, you're starting to have a one track mind.
You don't always have to use your sexual power. There's more to human interaction than getting naked!
You Are 64% Grown Up, 36% Kid
Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.
damn random! haha national day meant stoning in audi for 2 hours and then stoning in class playing chess for 2 hours -.-
on the other hand i went to popular and bought The Last Lecture! hopefully a good read, since such books always turn out enlightening. I wonder what would happen when i know i am about to die. doubt i'll be so brave. =/
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Sian day today..first period double maths..
which morphed into form teacher period spanning 55mins..
teacher nag and nag about class cleanliness.. and had to use maths period to talk about it -.-
anyway my circular measure test got 1 question screw up! she draw until like it was a right angle triangle when it's not! and i got scammed T-T
at least this time we nvr verbal ko her! lol though we did tell her in her face that she was slightly unreasonable. @_@
but then no choice yar form teacher @_@
made me tired and lethargic for the whole day laa sapped me of my energy T-T
kala sick today! sore throat,..so we did our srq in class...i was doing it half asleep o.o towards the end i dont even know what i am writing liao @_@
CDE was fun..but then i got dao'ed cos i sat in the corner! he checked evryone's work and when he walked towards me..he turned around lol. x.x
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was going to the bus stop when bojia asked me "are you crossing the bridge?"
then i was like "eh how you know?"
apparently i walked past her and didnt notice her! LOL
then i saw carissa and sylvia at the bus stop...sorry! forgot to bring the money lol! i'll give it to you on friday laa :D
after that went to Island Creamery with aileng
first time there LOL
chitchat and eat ice cream there for like around 1 and a half hours o.O
we were like laming around haha!
i accept the challenge aileng! I WIN YOU IN IQ! LOL
Your IQ Is 115
Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Above Average
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getting lethargic and tired nowadays @_@ shall sleep earlier.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
went to NYConcertBand Concert ytd..THE LAST CONCERT I SHALL GO FOR IN THE NEXT FEW WEEKS! or else i bankrupt liao T-T
tio coerced to go by sylvia who suddenly had crewing duties -.-
took ICAS English..totally doing it half asleep and that teacher refuses to let me go wash my face -.-
after that met up with yingling and her friend (yining i think) and went to raffles city together to walk around and eat while waiting for yinkuan.
walk walk talk talk then we went to eat.. i tried pepper lunch for the first time lol!
scalded my pinky finger T-T
then we went for the concert..they went in and i got stuck out there while waiting for carissa to pass me my ticket @_@ almost starting le then she come..i 冒冷汗 sia!
The band was quite good la! since they are in the "limelight" (it's the name of the concert series as well lol), they must be quite zai right!
they started off with some piece of which name i forgotten -.-
i remembered it was quite fast-paced!
after that they played Joe Hisashi Works 2! Got my favorite Spirited Away! XD
they played it quite nicely, but a few cracks here and there laa
The next piece is ... i forgot again. but then again i rmb it wasn't that bad. oh no i suffer from shortterm memory loss! >.< strange i still rmb my history facts from last term @_@
oh wait its called sock hop tonight! xD
retro piece @_@ but it was quite funk haha
AFter that the percussion played their ensemble piece..tribal sound system,, upbeat!
then interval.
After that the alumni band played 演歌メドレ!!! enka medore (medley) for those not proficient in japanese! XD
it was quite nice! sounds better than how i play it anyhow..since i suck at my clarinet imo lol
another of my favorite pieces haha
then they played dancing megahits! more retro funk @_@ "my heart goes sha la la la la~~" LOL
after that was a upbeat "latin favorites" and then ended with a fun-filled "disneyland celebrations"! their minnie mouse hat was funny! XD
then their encore piece was UNDER THE DOUBLE EAGLE! LOL i thought that was like our band's marching trademark or smth.. but who cares! xD
short and sweet..concluded in under 2 hours! but then it's still damn late. and carissa had her father fetch her home la. so i have to go home myself T-T
then shuting said she wants to take the cab, even though i suggested mrt.
so in the end we walked a whole lot of distance from the esplanade to marina boulevard to some random business district to take a taxi. when we left it was 9.30. when we reached the taxi stand it was 10.20 LOL
yawn tired...
hopefully can get back my circular measure minitest and see how well i fare! =O
Saturday, August 2, 2008
apparently some people have adjectives for names.
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Went for NYCD concert ytd! shall be the last concert i attend for the next 2 weeks lol
they were very zai, but unfortunately we were distracted by a little boy who was playing PSP with MAXIMUM brightness. -.- totally blinded
His relative had a relatively big hairdo and blocked my sight too @_@
but then i think they did a good job! i liked the Qing Hua Ci! XD
today went for Wenhao's GreenSchooling Conference! was okay..got to learn alot of facts and meet new people!
then i went for the Dunk It @ NDP event as a eco youth mentor! haha me and junan brought our groups across the padang area @_@ damn tiring!
our first station was the raffles statue. The only problem: There's 2 raffles statues in that area..walking distance from both. in the end we wasted a lot of time and ended up SECOND ...last! lol!
pictures are here!
The esplanade + singapore flyer!
What symbolism! haha! Stamford is the forefront of our economic prowess!
the cool helicopters carrying a reverse flag -.- cos i was on the other side T-T
the jetplanes made a heart-shape to show their love for Singapore! everyone was ooh and ahh-ing! =O
aha fireworks! xD
NY Green Club and the HC guys - zongxian lol
me,jasmine, minying, yingling
the picture says it all xD
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