Monday, June 30, 2008
The world suddenly seemed a darker place,
The Sun seemed to have died out.
Our dreams suddenly seemed to vanish,
even the Moon doesn't seem to come out.
The day You left my world,
everything ceased to vanish,
and everything in it wiped out.
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Today's Monday! which means a new start of a school week and back to good ol' school..yawn.
Nearly late for school today.. reached at around 7.20 and immediately dashed for the band room and to the field. made it in time phew.
but then in the end couldn't play much cos my brain was like totally lacking of oxygen and i felt like fainting. >.<
The rest of the day pretty much goes on...school being a place where my soul seem to detach from my body for that 8 hours..detached in all senses..socially, mentally, and sometimes physically.
My orthostatic hypotension occurrences seem to be getting more and more frequent now..and it really sucks.. giddy spells and feeling like fainting.. gosh. It used to be fine, but not now i guess.
I have realised that my main aim in School is to stay on alive as long as possible, , and to stay detached in all senses, much like Kiritani Shuuji in Nobuta wo Produce. School no longer provides a haven for me to stay in. It's a dread. But at least i get to look forward to stuff outside of school. If there were no friends like some of you here, i might have went crazy, and i am definitely not joking. The tremendous amount of sorrow and sadness inside me would have bursted.
And so...
I would like to thank all of you for being with me all this time. =)
Sunday, June 29, 2008
woo just finished my damn-ambitious progreen proposal...
so here's a quiz i promised aileng i would do lol.
1)do you have a wide group of friends ?
Dunno. what's considered wide? I think i got quite a few ba.
2)if you're in trouble , will your friends 'fly' to help you ?
I don't know. don't ask me. Ask them.
3)will you sacrifice your most precious thing for your friends ?
My precious thing can't be sacrificed.. LOL
4)do you believe in BFF ?
Best-friends forever? Forever is an illusion.
5)do you think a straight and a woman can just be platonic friends ?
yea i think so. but apparently alot of the males in this world doesn't.
6)do you have a male friend whom you can trust with almost evrything ?
No. Not now. Not ever i guess.
7)do you think friends should tell each other evrything ?
What makes you think they tell you everything?
8)if your friends are in trouble , wht will you do ?
"Jump in and save them from whatever they are in." is what i would like to say, but sadly i ain't Superman.
9)in future , if your friends get married and ask you to be their best man , will you agree ?
Depends. I may be that guy from "made of honour" LOL
10)wht if your enemy calls you one day to make peace?
I wouldn't have picked up if i saw his name.
11)wht will you do to a friend whom you trust deeply, betrayed you?
kill that person and go emo, cut my wrist, and jump down the flat.... nahh everyone has their reasons, but backstabbing me for any reason deserves a kick in the -----
12)if your friend snatches your gf away , will you hate him or her completely ?
nah.. i'll just snatch her back! .. or just find a new one ==
13)wht if there is a girl that has liked your friend for quite some time, tells you that she needs your help to win the heart of your friend, will you help her?
i would make that girl like me instead, without letting my friend know. LOL
14)do your parents think your friends are a bad influence ?
Yes. For god-know-what-damn-freaking !@!%!$!^@ reason.
15)wht will you tell your parents if they asked you to transfer school, which means losing all your closest friends?
i would tell them that they need to think more about it.
16)if your friend organizes a once in a life time party, but your family doesn’t allow you to go , will you sulk/throw a temper/sneak out/don’t go?
I would force them to let me go. or sneak out blahblah
17)how will you describe your friendship relationship with your friends?
I don't know. my class says i am arrogant but i don't get it =/
18)define friendship .
"Friendship should be built upon a foundation of trust and belief in your friend that he would stay with you forever." totally politically correct.
19)name 20 people whom you can think right now . don’t read the questions until you named the 20 people . at the end , choose 5 people to do this .
1.Yvonne
2.Ai Leng
3.Zongxian
4.Peixian
5.Rumeng
6.Madeleine
7.Tingyun
8.Weisheng
9.Bojia
10.Cindy
11.Carissa
12.Daoyi
13.Qian Ze
14. Jichao
15. Jiahong
16. Shumei
17. Yijiao
18. Tongjing
19. Zhenxiang
20. Wenhao
how did you meet no. 4?
Peixian: BSP camp
wht will you do if you never meet no. 1?
Yvonne: Cry me a river. LOL
wht if no. 9 & no. 20 dated?
Bojia and Wenhao: o.o that would be interesting.
will no. 6 & no. 17 date?
Madeleine and Yijiao: ahh the great taste of Forbidden Love. LOL
describe no. 3.
Zong Xian: Emo chem pro who has a perchant for writing sad long intellectual posts.
describe no. 7.
Tingyun: totally random
do you knw any of no.12’s family?
Daoyi: nahh
wht will you do if no.18 confess to you that she likes you?
Tongjing: would be fun to see if that ever happens!
wht language does no.15 speak ?
Jiahong: Noob language LOL
how old is no.16?
Shumei : 16?
whn is the last time you spoke to no.13?
Qian Ze: Friday
who is no.2 favorite band or singer?
Ai Leng: NewS, Tegomass, Hey! Say! i think
would you ever date no. 4?
Peixian: maybe.
would you ever date no. 1?
Yvonne: i wouldn't want to say.
is no. 19 single?
Zhenxiang: he's in love with his studies LOL
would you ever be in a relationship with no.11?
Carissa: dunno.
school of no. 3?
Zong Xian: HCI
whr does no. 6 live?
Madeleine : somewhere in harbourfront?
wht is your favourite thing about no.5?
Rumeng: niao-ing her LOL
have you seen no. 2 naked?
Ai Leng: o.o
wht is no.8's nickname ?
Weisheng: Scandalous introvert LOL
Next 5 person to do the survey .
1.Shumei
2.Peixian
3. Zongxian
4. Yijiao
5. Bojia
DO! lol
woohoo yesterday went to boon lay to mug with someone..den after that tio pangseh...just nice tongjing called me to go to her house to mug with zongxian and the usual lot so i went..
mugged like near nothing there actually, cos i couldn't understand her txtbook and my notes arent complete..
so i just read through my term 1 test paper and my revision papers to see my mistakes and stuff, and then stayed for dinner at tongjing's..
went home at 8~ and reached home at around 9.30.
here's the fun part =D
as i went towards my door, i see my mum locking the one door i do have the keys for..the gate o.o
den she told me "你不用回来了！” and went off to watch tv...
so now i am stuck in a 看得见，进不去 situation...well at least she didn't close the door...
so i stoned out there trying to use my ipod touch to find lockpicking methods..but not possible laa.. so i resigned and stoned out there doing random stuff from doing pushups to watching chnl newsasia / chnl 8/chnl u depending on what she was watching..
stoned out there for 1hr 20mins...
this is so fun..
lucky dad came back =D then he helped call mum to open the door.. lol
Get your Great Lockout today! Limited Mums only!
Thursday, June 26, 2008
2nd day of Asia pacific water forum!
today more fun haha we went to science centre! lots of fun exhibits haha
very long nvr go this kind of exhiitions le xD
me and tze liang in front of the polar bear.. lol
spent 3 hrs thr haha while ppl all in school lol!
until 12 den release for free lunch @waterhub haha
the HCI Delegates! I swear WaterHub is as obscure as Kyrgyzstan!
we had group discussions for our presentation after the lunch..
our group got 20ppl 0.0
just realised we are supposed to implement a project lot! thought is just slack de haha
got a certificate of participation for "actively engaging in discussions"..didn't rmb doing that. lol
Sian later reach home still need to catch up to work >.<
oh noes physics term test next week :O
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life's never been brighter without you.
with you around, life's never been the same.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
sian now at water forum with nth to do..
so here I am playing with my iPod ..
now the deputy director of PUB giving us a overview of how toilet drink newater is made..reverse osmosis and whatnots..
All the water sources of singapore omg
desal water/newater as a sustainable resource o.o
damn SIAN! AHHH!
but better than just now that talk on sustainable lifestyle..totally fell aslp haha
eat and sit and eat and sit...like bsp camp liddat. XD
will blog more later ba..ohnoes 2 days of no school haha
at least I done all the maths hw for the 2days le yay!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Yep ladies and gentlemen, its the 3rd time in the year we experienced this melancholy.
The sadness and grief overflowing from us.
The time school reopens.
And what pisses you off more is when a teacher just seem to give up on you.
You try to work hard,
The teacher tries to put you down.
WTF is wrong with this kind of people? -.-
went to kap to mug ytd..quite okay la finished most of my compre and did my maths as well..
actually just yijiao me and zongxian EDIT +Qianye!.
tmr going for Asian Youth Water Forum! 2 days no school haha..but the thing end at like 5pm zz
Sunday, June 22, 2008
WOOHOO School's totally opening again =DD
June holidays was just a one-month long dream..but at least i enjoyed it! (and did all my hw for the first time in history zomgawd)
Enjoyed every single moment of it...outings with all the bspfacils/ots, the bsp camp, the chalet, the mugging sessions, and for once i even liked returning to band!
Now back to school..mugging sessions ftw...
new timetable sucks! but no choice..bo bian..
I missed the PC Show this year! rawr now i still no printer >.<
Hopefully can get one soon or else i have to keep asking david lim to print for me lol.
Sweet memories this june, now for bad ones..
as they say u nvr get anything good without anything bad later.
School starts like 7 hours.. good luck have fun people!
may the bspfacils/ots have more outings!!! XD
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At least i met you this summer,
this summer of dreams.
Yesterday went to mug at KAP with yijiao / zongxian / zhikai / etc etc
@band, Our Hymn to the Sun improved! yay..but then the running notes still suck for me >.<
'nuff said. lol
Today went to watch Get Smart..wanted to watch zohan but we came at around 10.50..and the movie started at 10.45 =/ so we decided to watch Get Smart at 11pm! after that i went to do mugging...did kinematics and crap.
in 29 hours we are gonna step out of the house, with shagged looks and feeling darn tired, wearing your school uniform, going to school. GOSH that makes me so damn excited =\
Friday, June 20, 2008
i am really sian now..so i'll do the name quiz thingy..
-courtesy of wenhao/zongxian and others..-
It's harder than it looks! Copy and paste to your own journal, erase my answers, and add your own.Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real places, names &/or objects, but nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.And Have Fun With It!!!
1) 4 LETTER WORD: Evil
2) BOY NAME: Ezekiel ( God's Strength in Hebrew..apparently )
3) GIRL NAME: Eugenia
4) OCCUPATION: Evil Scientist
5) A COLOR: Ecru describes the shade greyish-pale yellow or a light greyish-yellowish brown. (wiki!)
6) SOMETHING YOU WEAR: Earrings
7) BEVERAGE: Eggnogs for christmas!
8) FOOD: Eggplants..looks yucky bleh
9) SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: Elbow pipe.
10) A PLACE: Ecuador
11) REASON FOR BEING LATE: ”ecchi shita, dakara osokatta.”
12) SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: "EEEEEEEEEEEE"
yay i did it =D only used a bit of wiki lol..didn't know there were colors with E..
yay its 1 am now =D
Thursday, June 19, 2008
A wave of melancholy,
A tide of despair
A gust of hopelessness,
A blast of tiredness,
seeks to overwhelm.
It is looming,
in the distance,
not so far away.
When the time comes, are you ready?
to part with your friends,
to not meet them again.
To forsake your life,
for mere numbers, or an A or 2,
When the time comes, are you ready?
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Today is a screwed day.
Rushed for the elevator, and some woman just suddenly stopped in front of me..shocked me and caused me to fall down..den i suddenly felt so lucky wearing long pants.
I just got not-so-deep cuts, even tho it was bleeding horrendously. now i have to wash my pants again.
imagine if i had wore pe shorts..*scenes from Saw and The Hostel flashes past*
not to mention i would have froze in the band room.
anyway band wasn't that bad today. just that i suck at sight-reading and i know it.
Hymn to the Sun was quite okay, just that all the running notes have sharps/flats and i couldn get it in time.
clarinet section lunch at KAP after that. Met Patricia there!
then so qiao after that i went toilet and saw ervin. went down and saw zongxian / wenhao and alan.
what a small world.
What would happen to this small small world,
30 years down the road.
When petrol is all but gone,
how would we cope?
Solar Panels? Nuclear Energy?Wind?Geo-thermal?
It may be sustainable energy, but would it be effective to supply all of us with enough energy?
Energy-hungry, we chomp on energy like it is meant for us.
Would we be able to find an answer out there?
What would it be like in the future?
It's a dark future out there,
and it'll be on our generation,
but with brave hearts we will find an answer.
Somehow.
Just like how Humans have always been.
omg i feel so crappy.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
yay went to watch The Happening at some place with some friends..
So nice omg! much better than Po the Kung-fu-panda-who-cant-beat-the-tigress-but-can-beat-the-evil-guy.
Apparently this story of The Happening is about some weird toxin that is an act of nature, ( blamed on the terrorists in the beginning. as usual) which causes ppl to start killing themselves. IT IS TOTALLY LIKE A RIPOFF OFF CELL BY STEPHEN KING!
ppl start going crazy, walking backwards, talking "calculus" and then killing themselves with any random way ( from knocking the head on the wall and the window, to turning on the grasscutter and lying in its path )..from construction workers jumping off the buildings, to army personnel shouting "my firearm is my friend. it will not leave my side!" and commiting suicide. The tense atmosphere is there, the music effects are okay, and theres a "Wow" factor there.
but it just felt too weird. imagine if we get this virus in our world. Seeing your best friend killing herself right in front of you. Seeing your teacher jumping off the building ( that might be good ), and finally feeling you lose all sense of inhibition and following the same path.
How weird. Would you even feel a thing?
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Woke up at 5.06pm. must hav been yesterday's seriously late sleep and the subsequently seriously early awakening..
another day wasted. rawr .. totally forgot abt the band exchange!
played viwawa with yvonne ytd...she keep winning lor...but at least i won a 5clubs !
hope i dont meet the infamous xiaxue there and get scolded by her lol
shall finish up physics later at 7pm. hopefully this determination holds like b^2 - 4ac and is not imaginary numbers...
JIAYOU WENHAO!! YOU CAN DO IT!
omg its 5 days and 6hours left...126hours omg.
soon the heavy weight of school and work would crush whatever happiness and fun you had in the month of june. The monotonous voice of teachers would replace your friends' laughter and chatter. You may meet your school friends but is it enough? Outings would be no longer with friends but with your teachers and class, where discipine is expected. Forsake your soul, and sell it to the Devil Textbooks. Results would be your drive in life.
When that time comes. are YOU ready?
Monday, June 16, 2008
slept at 5,30am today and woke up at 8.45 lol
3hrs15mins of sleep is enough for the whole day and i can't believe it LOL
wanted to sleep at 1 plus..but decided to play bleach heat the soul 5 on my psp..play until no batt den i went to watch Meet The Spartans on my com..DAMN FUNNY LOL ITS DAMN DUMB!
totally retarded but i like!! haha
den watch until like 5..den watched some old china drama on chnl 8 from 5-5.30 ... checked out news flash on CNA den i went to sleep lol...
today went to yvonne's house again to mug..once again not so productive lols..i totally lost the drive to do physics cos i forgot half of all sec 3 work.. -.-
treated tongjing starbucks..ohmy it burnt a hole in my pocket together with that dunno-why-the-hell-so-ex lunch..
Sunday, June 15, 2008
haha feeling damn bored now so after spending a few minutes dowsing for a network I found a network called mummy haha
and started blogging haha
Celebrating my mum's birthday and father's day..
We just finished our meal....
Had curry fish head, fried prawns and the usual dishes u'd expect..
And my favorite dish..jiang cong yu pian!! XD
Sadly this isn an iPhone so no pics haha
its supposed to be quite famous for its food..
But i think its still not bad laa haha its somewhere in kallang ..
And I'm listening to phantom of the opera while blogging and eating! Haha xD
Shall do this more often when i am out to cure boredom..
Abt to go off le..tata
Happy Father's Day!
Happy Birthday to my mum!
Hais nothing much on the planning board today except for going out for dinner at night with my whole family.
tmr got mugging session at yvonne's house again =DD hopefully it'll be more productive..
Saturday, June 14, 2008
chatted with peixian from 1-3am ytd..talk halfway she fell asleep lol
today was another sian day..decided that i would dao the last 2 revisions of maths until the last weekend..now must focus on physics/ihc and chem ace..
rawr tomoro's mum's birthday and father's day. nice combo eh!
Friday, June 13, 2008
yay finished another maths revision..left with 4 now! hopefully can start touching my physics by tmr, and start touching my ihc soon as well! den reserve the last week for fun, joy and laughter and ACE for chem. thats the only subject i need ACE for!! xD
anyway tried further food experimentation..today i developed homemade cheese curry noodles!
very easy de..
first maggi ( yea its unhealthy but who cares, just dont eat too much! )
curry flavor powder ( available with all maggi curry flavor )
egg ( just so it tastes eggish )
a piece of cheese (chesdale, wadeva )
just cook as usual.. and just near the end of the cooking, when the foam starts rising, throw in the cheese and let it melt, and stir a bit. off the fire, and stir more..
you'll get tasty cheese curry noodles! IT ROCKS! xD the think cheesy taste blends in totally with the hawtness of the curry and that taste can be felt overwhelming your taste buds =DD
depending on how salty you want your food to be, you can choose varying amounts of water =)
and the best thing, you spend no more than 5-7 mins on this delicacy.=D
wonder what else can i experiment my food with..hmm
11 days 9hours left to do my physics revision/ihc papers/the last few revisions of maths and some ACE. will i make it?
Yesterday woke up at 2pm..washed up and went to bugis to meet zhikai for ECO singapore volunteer induction programme..quite interesting..apparently my major project would be earth hour 2009 next year..imagine if everyone participates actively..singapore would be dark for an hour woot!
Today went for the pull-ups training again..supposed to meet up with bojia for lunch at kap..den zongxian wanted to join so he tagged along. bojia only pay for like 3 dollars of the meal can! zongxian subsidized her meal and i paid for her greentea mcflurry! just proves that this image is correct..
hahaha
yvonne and peixian having steamboat for dinner WTH! i doubt band even have a mass fastfood session..!!
Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana - Groucho Marx
Get the joke? LOL
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
another normal day..
slept at 3am
awoke at 3pm..
with an aching sore throat..rawr
ate a dumpling that my mum left in the wok and out of boredom experimented with some food in my house..
many ppl probably tried it before..
it's called the Sweet Golden Bread..
basically bread with cheese and sugar on it sent into the oven lol..
looks nice right =D
tastes good too..saltiness of the cheese melting in your mouth coupled with a tingling sweetness and the plain-ness of the bread just makes up for that overflowing sensation. xD
coupled with coffee =D
yvonne says coffee is bad for my teeth.turns them yellow apparently..
so i shall change to green tea tmr or the day after. xD
sian was supposed to start my homework at 4..now is near 7. rawr i'll start now..
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
anyway on news flash..
malaysia's oil prices rose by 41% overnight, thanks to the removal of government fuel subsidies...good luck to those going to malaysia anytime soon. of course this would be temporary, until either PM abdullah's government puts in the 20billion subsidy plan which would reduce minister salaries and holiday subsidies (why would they need it in the first place i don't know), or anwar succeeds in forcing abdullah off (doubt it'll work considering what happened when maharti quit umno to force abdullah off).. i'll be staying off malaysia in the time being.
and another news of the day..
south korean cabinet offers to resign in light of recent political turmoil regarding the government's decision to import american beef, leading to fear of mad cow disease being exposed to the public. the government was barely 107 days old. win.
don't ask me why i wrote this. i just felt bored. lol.
today was such a horrid day...
i woke up finding a hand on my body that's not mine..
and i was damn shocked..
den i realised that i couldn feel my right hand..
god that feeling sucks.
it's almost like something hanging on my right arm but i couldn feel it >.< next time must sleep in correct posture liao..my whole right arm basically went numb T_T
went to hougang mall just now to have lunch and buy a silicon case for my ipod touch..
realised that i bought one for iphone thinking that it was the same. then it struck to me that the iphone was around 2x the thickness of my ipod..22 dollars gone -.-
mugging session wasn all that productive yesterday..
but i did finish up 2 more revisions =D so now i have around 8/12 revisions left that seems so freaking hard. i am so gonna ignore all those integration questions pretending that i don't know how to do them.//
still have physics and ihc to do somemore rawr.
but then still quite fun la ytd. at least we met up again =D
apparently after roughly 3 hours of mugging our concentration flew out like superman through the window..and we ended up playing sticks..
and...
a new scandal has been born..
madeleine: zongxian is "provocative." o.o
lol after all the crapping yiran and weisheng turned up at around 5.30 to 6pm TOGETHER!
and i also don't know why they came cos after they came we wanted to have dinner and they left.
TOGETHER. LOL
we went to kfc for some dinner. and out of boredom the 4 of us took out weisheng's sec 1 pic, whipped out our phones, and started taking snapshots of it. now all of us has it! XD
Sunday, June 8, 2008
finally felt energetic enough to blog..
so anyway i went to AMK Hub with lytien on friday to try to mug and watch kungfu panda..
as it turns out i cant mug anything because once i enter an air-conditioned environment, i found out that my mind starts to slow down and my eyelids will start to feel heavy..
basically i just fall asleep in an air-conditioned environment. (now i noe why i always fall asleep in class)
we regretted buying a 3.55 ticket for kungfu panda because we basically stoned at the library from 12 to 2.40..before deciding to go to nEbO to pay 2 dollars each to use the internet ==
As for kungfu panda, it was quite funny! i love all the lame moments in the movie! but then got some major plotholes, like why the hell did master tortoise vanish..totally no explanation except "he's gone". also, i expected something to happen when the pot that is rumored to contain the souls of a 1000 soldiers was broken by Po the Panda..nothing there too. i give it a 6.5/10! xD
but of course, if you need a laugh and to relieve stress feel free to watch it. it'll help ;)
And i just realised half of the 12 pages long 120++ questions maths revision can't be done because we haven't learnt them yet. good one teacher!
Friday, June 6, 2008
now is 5.05...and the usual me forbids any homework to be done. -.- currently making up some nice breakfast set --> halfboiled egg + coffee ^^
hope to do at least 3 pages of revision before going off to school.
see yall later. ^^
Due to yvonne's persistency, i shall remove the pics of her sleeping. of course, it's still on my com LOL
Anyway just slept some 14 hours before deciding to wake up at 4.05am to do some homework -.- later still need go back school do some training cos i failed pullups rawr! dunno want to go watch kungfu panda with lytien or not after that.
CHALET WAS FUN =DD
It's totally full of scandals and gossips sia!
yvonne should go set up some gossiping group..whole day can go track down gossips..SPH wanbao and the new paper would definitely welcome such talents. ^^
Anyway we did lots of things, including cycling, bowling, mahjong, cards, and the truth or dare! which i gave up on listening and went down to sleep cos i am DARN tired!!
us at bowling =DD @ the "pathway of dazzling lights"
we also watched shutter at around 3.30am..which is so-not-scary! i totally predicted the whole movie larh! LOL
the "Group of 4" after watching shutter.
anyway on first day we wanted to watch the sunrise..only to kena rain..2nd day i totally slept through the sunrise LOL
after the chalet we all went to white sands to eat lunch, and...
yvonne's sleeping again. with yiran. LOL
and mad is totally pissed that i keep pushing her away..WHICH IS NOT THE CASE!!
got to know each other more! EVA's singing very zai de wor!!
and we all know now that zongxian's gay! XD
now looking forward to mugging sessions =D
and just some funny insert : i got stuck outside my house for 30mins bcos i forgot to bring my housekey with me..-.- totally slept out there!
Monday, June 2, 2008
Ytd went for our facil gathering at ervin's house..
met up at serangoon mrt at around 1.30 and den delayed to around 3 before finally getting to his house due to hiccups~~
they watched ghost game, which was supposed to be quite scary...( i guess when your playing bridge while watching a scary movie nothing is actually scary...maybe except for tongjing..LOL )
after that me yvonne px yijiao and wenhao went to hcjc co concert..
the pictures tell it all. LOL **EDIT** due to strong protests by yvonne and peixian, pictures depicting them sleeping have been removed!! LOL
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