Monday, June 30, 2008
The world suddenly seemed a darker place,
The Sun seemed to have died out.
Our dreams suddenly seemed to vanish,
even the Moon doesn't seem to come out.
The day You left my world,
everything ceased to vanish,
and everything in it wiped out.
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Today's Monday! which means a new start of a school week and back to good ol' school..yawn.
Nearly late for school today.. reached at around 7.20 and immediately dashed for the band room and to the field. made it in time phew.
but then in the end couldn't play much cos my brain was like totally lacking of oxygen and i felt like fainting. >.<
The rest of the day pretty much goes on...school being a place where my soul seem to detach from my body for that 8 hours..detached in all senses..socially, mentally, and sometimes physically.
My orthostatic hypotension occurrences seem to be getting more and more frequent now..and it really sucks.. giddy spells and feeling like fainting.. gosh. It used to be fine, but not now i guess.
I have realised that my main aim in School is to stay on alive as long as possible, , and to stay detached in all senses, much like Kiritani Shuuji in Nobuta wo Produce. School no longer provides a haven for me to stay in. It's a dread. But at least i get to look forward to stuff outside of school. If there were no friends like some of you here, i might have went crazy, and i am definitely not joking. The tremendous amount of sorrow and sadness inside me would have bursted.
And so...
I would like to thank all of you for being with me all this time. =)
Thanks to all the blogs i referred to (countless) for html code help :) (esp. cyn' and sixseven)
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