Tuesday, May 20, 2008
YOU just love it when you look at your maths paper for 15mins..and totally blank out. and the clock continues to go "tick, tock, tick, tock"..and you realise you have no idea how to do it.
HERE's the fun part. after the paper, you turn around and ask one of your friends, "hey how did you do that question.." only to find that you already knew how to do it and actually did it for assignments and got it correct.
Yes that's it. we call it a "blanked out" syndrome. and screw it.
I am spiraling into a state of self-induced hysteria and phobia of tests..and i have no idea how to solve it. and the worst thing is i let down so many people that have cheered me on.
Breaking down seems imminent..and i know it myself..yet i can't stop it.
The future once seemed so pleasant, so hopeful.. yet the present do not reflect this at all. I can no longer take this screwed present. Everything was planned properly, yet this world forbids anything to be planned properly. Nothing ever goes well for any long period of time.
Maybe 2012 will change the way the world is, maybe not. i am thinking not. After all, what "great change in world order" can we see in 4 years judging from how things are going now? At most, we'll all die in a torrent of rain, chains of earthquakes, or falling meteors.
Anyway, screw this world.
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